Sunday Musings is where I talk about random things blog and book related. And sometimes not so blog or book related. It won’t be every Sunday but whenever the mood catches me.
I remember when I first started blogging about books back in the day when blogs where popular. My first blog was The Little Reading Nook and it was hosted over on BlogSpot.
Back then I was more consistent with posting. Maybe because life was simpler. I had recently moved across country to a new city and didn’t have a job. At the time I was in school and had a lot of free time on my hand. Reading and blogging was a cheap and easy hobby for me to have then.
The bookish internet has changed a lot since then. Youtube, TicTok, Twitter, and Instagram have all taken over as the place people go to talk books. And I have tried my hands at all of them with the same results, little tractions.
Not that traction is very important to me. But I’ve struggled to find an audience to interact with.
I know it’s mostly my fault. I am inconsistent. And like with a lot of things forming a community on the bookish internet takes a lot of consistency. Which I struggle with.
But I think my biggest struggle is with aesthetics. The places were all the cool kids are at now (Youtube, TikTok, and Instagram) all thrive on aesthetics and having a look that is pleasing to the eye. It doesn’t matter if it’s nicely lined bookshelves or pretty layouts for pictures. It’s important. It’s what grabs people’s eyes and makes them click more to see what you have to say.
That’s where I struggle.
I suck at Canva. I know that my images leave much to be desired. They’re plan and boring and do every little to even grab my own attention.
But I also know that practice makes perfect. And that to get better it, I need to keep trying and learning.
But I am also a perfectionist sometimes. And my images are just never good enough for me to want to put them out there.
And that’s how I find myself in these never ending cycles of starting and stopping the blog. Starting and stopping posting on Instagram. Starting and stopping Threads. And crashing and burning on Youtube.
But I guess I’m going to have to admit to myself that my images are boring and probably will be for a long time. Until I get good at creating them and find a style that is at least pleasing to my own eye.
I’m going to have to post here, on Threads, on IG, into the void. Until one day, maybe, someone or multiple someones decided to stop by more frequently and say hi.
It’s hard though, even thinking about it is a little depressing. Because in this day in age, engagement is king and somewhere in everyone mind that engages in content on social media thinks that if they don’t grow fast, they fail.
As they said in the Jack in the Box commercial back in the day, “If you build it they will come”
That was Jack in the Box? Wasn’t it?
